Is it the cigarette burning or me????????

Is it the cigarette burning or me????????

Thinking of the day’s worries and work, smoking my way down I did not realize how far I had gone from life. I was walking all my day through different stories and thinking about them with a cigarette in my hand and forgot about the distance that grew between me and life. I have lived a fairly happy life with my family, friend and my love but little I knew about the realities of life. I was lost in my own deep thoughts and did not know how to come out of the cob web which I had created. I struggled my way throughout the day between work and family but was unsuccessful in maintaining the balance between them. I have always given priority to my personal life with my boyfriend. And never bothered to look back to my family which has been my strength and worked as blood in my body. They have always supported me in all my decisions and have accepted them with an open heart. They know that I am sinking into the smoke of the cigarette in my hand.

Now I realize how much they love me and it is not the cigarette burning but its me who is burning deep down in my own guilt and eventually I too will be into ashes just like that cigarette in my hand and one day some one will squash it and throw me into a ash tray and I will die in the form of ashes.

I love my family but can’t tell them as the smoke of the cigarette has made a wall between us and I can’t see anyone close to me. This post is for my family and its time for me to stump the cigarette before it destroys me as it is not the cigarette which is burning but I am turning into ashes.