Hate to be alone

Hate to be alone
Today is Sunday and I hate to work on Sundays. The very thought of working when others are not annoys me. It’s the first day of my week and no one in the office. I hate staying alone in the office doing nothing. At home as usual it was a bad morning. Mom was shouting at the top of her voice I don’t know why but she wanted us to get up early and do some house cleaning. I walked out of the house as soon as I could, came to office and found myself alone. For a change I started my day by writing my stories and not talking on the phone trying to wake up my boyfriend form his lazy bed.

I was alone in the office for more than two hours now no talking on the phone, no talking to anyone in the office, nothing, just me and the silence which surrounded me all the time. I kept wondering why I don’t feel like talking to anyone. I don’t know but today I’ve made up my mind I am not going to call my boyfriend or any of my friends and just concentrate on my work. Is keeping quiet so difficult? Or it’s just me who’s making it more difficult?

I fear to be alone, by myself.
I hate to see myself in the mirror
I don’t know what’s wrong with me?
I was never like this.
I can’t find my self, where am I?
I’ve got lost in my own silence
I can’t find that bubbly girls whom I knew
I look at myself and wonder I am the same person?
Have I changed?
There came a voice and told me it’s just a phase and I’ll get use to it
Nothings wrong I have just grown a bit mature and evolved as a person
I sigh and say oh!!! Ok I have finally grown a bit older!!!!!!!