Hate to be alone

Hate to be alone
Today is Sunday and I hate to work on Sundays. The very thought of working when others are not annoys me. It’s the first day of my week and no one in the office. I hate staying alone in the office doing nothing. At home as usual it was a bad morning. Mom was shouting at the top of her voice I don’t know why but she wanted us to get up early and do some house cleaning. I walked out of the house as soon as I could, came to office and found myself alone. For a change I started my day by writing my stories and not talking on the phone trying to wake up my boyfriend form his lazy bed.

I was alone in the office for more than two hours now no talking on the phone, no talking to anyone in the office, nothing, just me and the silence which surrounded me all the time. I kept wondering why I don’t feel like talking to anyone. I don’t know but today I’ve made up my mind I am not going to call my boyfriend or any of my friends and just concentrate on my work. Is keeping quiet so difficult? Or it’s just me who’s making it more difficult?

I fear to be alone, by myself.
I hate to see myself in the mirror
I don’t know what’s wrong with me?
I was never like this.
I can’t find my self, where am I?
I’ve got lost in my own silence
I can’t find that bubbly girls whom I knew
I look at myself and wonder I am the same person?
Have I changed?
There came a voice and told me it’s just a phase and I’ll get use to it
Nothings wrong I have just grown a bit mature and evolved as a person
I sigh and say oh!!! Ok I have finally grown a bit older!!!!!!!

Is it the cigarette burning or me????????

Is it the cigarette burning or me????????

Thinking of the day’s worries and work, smoking my way down I did not realize how far I had gone from life. I was walking all my day through different stories and thinking about them with a cigarette in my hand and forgot about the distance that grew between me and life. I have lived a fairly happy life with my family, friend and my love but little I knew about the realities of life. I was lost in my own deep thoughts and did not know how to come out of the cob web which I had created. I struggled my way throughout the day between work and family but was unsuccessful in maintaining the balance between them. I have always given priority to my personal life with my boyfriend. And never bothered to look back to my family which has been my strength and worked as blood in my body. They have always supported me in all my decisions and have accepted them with an open heart. They know that I am sinking into the smoke of the cigarette in my hand.

Now I realize how much they love me and it is not the cigarette burning but its me who is burning deep down in my own guilt and eventually I too will be into ashes just like that cigarette in my hand and one day some one will squash it and throw me into a ash tray and I will die in the form of ashes.

I love my family but can’t tell them as the smoke of the cigarette has made a wall between us and I can’t see anyone close to me. This post is for my family and its time for me to stump the cigarette before it destroys me as it is not the cigarette which is burning but I am turning into ashes.

A drop in the ocean

A drop in the ocean
It’s good to hear from some one whom you don’t even know but still that anonymous one appreciates your work. I did not know that some one might be even reading my articles but the kind of response that I have got for this article was extraordinary. The article is about a resident of Chembur who modifies cars and makes make-up vans for film stars. He also makes car models for stunts in films.

For me this was just a small profile and I worked on it just the way I did my other stories. I never knew it could be such a hit. I use to see my colleagues when they did braking stories and were chased by other media channels. It made me feel that I was good for nothing and that no one would ever even have a look at my articles. But my assumptions proved wrong when I too got calls from a few t.v channels for details of the guy who I wrote about.

I really felt very good when they called to congratulate me and asked if they could do a follow up on the story and get his contact number. I was happy for that guy too he really deserves it. He is a very simple man and has worked hard to earn that name. I feel if my article can help some one and get fame then I feel it’s worth the efforts I have put into it.

My article is just a drop in the ocean and I know it won’t go wasted as each drop makes a difference.

“Tsunami means disaster and destroys”

“Tsunami means disaster and destroys”
C.Pudupettai: “Tsunami means disaster and destroy” this is what the children in C.Pudupettai and other villages affected by the tsunami know. An 11year old boy Ajit Alagendram who can not talk properly after the tsunami is now struggling to get out of the trauma he is and is trying to speak after a year’s time after the tsunami. This 11 year boy is just one of the kids at C.Pudupettai who are now the beneficiaries of the constructed houses given to them at a function organized at C.Pudupettai, Cuddalore by SOS India, Shri Surjit Singh Barnala, Hon’ble, Governor, Tamil Nadu and President of SOS Kinderdorf International (KDI), Mr Helmut Kutin performed the symbolic handing over of the newly constructed house to the beneficiaries. Also present at the occasion were Cuddalore, Collector and Shri Siddhartha Kaul, Dy. Sec. Gen. SOS KDI – Asia.

Ajit has lost his voice when he first was the tsunami hit his village. He is 11 years now and is studying in the 3rd STD. in the village school. Ajit’s father is a fisher man by profession he has been doing fish catching business since the past 7 years. But after tsunami hit the village they lost their home, all their belongings and were left with nothing. For months they did not go to the sea. They lived on the mercy of the NGO’s and other relive funds given by the private organizations and the government. They don’t have a fixed income yet and go fishing on irregular occasions. The C.Pudupettai village has Muslim dominated population. The other hindu’s in the village have now especially after the tsunami started believing in ‘Nagur kadavul’ (Muslim God’s name) they worship the Muslim god before they go to the sea. Now they live in the village build by the SOS Children’s village of India with the help of the government of Tamil Nadu. This project as told by Cuddalore, Collector and Shri Siddhartha Kaul is “a joint partnership between the government and the public. The government buys the land and the public and the private NGO’s like SOS take the responsibility of building the houses and doing the allotments.”

Tsunami left its dreadful footprints on the region, making it difficult for the people to cope up with the aftermath. SOS India answered the call for rebuilding lives post-tsunami with series of extensive rehabilitation programmes for many affected families and children in several villages. As a part of the programme SOS India constructed temporary shelters for affected families in four villages. Family start-up kits were provided to more than 1300 families, which included kitchen utensils, dry ration, and financial support.
Besides this SOS India has supported over 1000 families in the self-help groups in Tamil Nadu and Pondichery. A group of 3 to 5 families were provided with motorized boats, fishing nets and other necessary material fishing. Additional 57 single boats were provided to 57 families in Chinnavaikal and Kannaginagar, Tamil Nadu. This programme has been successfully completed on its scheduled time.
SOS India is reconstructing 800 houses for affected families in villages allotted by the governments of Tamil Nadu and Pondicherry. SOS India is also constructing social centers & community buildings, which will enable recreational and vocational facilities for the community.

this was only about one of the parts affected by tsunami but the rest of south India and other places need our help so lets pray for them and extend a helping hand to the needy. as the day of tsunami comes near and the fear of the disaster creeps in the minds of the victims and create an other tsunami in their minds. lets come together and pray to god for them and the world to help us life in peace.

life rocks!!!!!!!!!!

This blog is all about life and the harsh realities of it. But still after all the hardships we go through at the end of the day life still rocks as the efforts we put bare good fruits.

My moto in life ………. Every cloud has a sliver lining.