To a boy who is a friend

I had read some where that trust is the only thing that makes a relationship work. It is on this strong base that my relationship with Rahul stands and keeps us going. We went to a party on Valentines Day and there I met one of my old friends Bunny. He told me that my ex boyfriend Narendra was in town and asked if I would like to meet him. Rahul knows everything about me including my past and the men I have been friends with.

My relationship with Narendra ended three years back and it was not on a sour note. He had got selected as a diver in the Indian Navy and had to leave for his training. Mean while his parents insisted him to get married and then resume his work. We were not prepared for marriage and Naren did not want to force his parents to get us married. So we decided to split but on one condition that we won’t have any bitter feeling for each other and will live our lives happily. Soon Naren my best friend and my first crush left Mumbai leaving behind me with a note to move on with my life.

I missed him but did not have any bitter feeling for him as for the time we spent together were too good to be remembered with a sore throat. Then I met Rahul and like a creeper my hands took the support of his strong arms and with the determination of living a good respectful life I moved on. From the time I met Rahul I never realized how time passed and my life had taken a turn towards new spectrums of life and I had discovered a new world which was full of love and happiness.

As I moved on I left behind all memories that I had about Naren. But when ever I hear that he is in town I felt like speaking to him. I wanted to know how is he, what’s up in his life and if he is as happy as I am? From time to time all my questions were answered by different people. When ever Bunny met me I made it is point to ask him about Naren. Even when I went to RCF (where we first met and where Nareb lives) I always wished if I cloud see him, but nothing actually happened. He always remained in my memories and I did not get a chance to meet him after his marriage. I have heard that he is very happy with his wife and I am really very happy for him.

I told Rahul what ever I felt about Naren, he is the only one I can speak my mind and heart out. I don’t need to think of me being judged for what I have said or fear of being punished. I know he understands me and will always wish the best for me. He does get worried about me some times, especially because of my profession. He hates when random people call me up and bother me. Some times he also gets angry but I know all he wants is me to be with good people around me. He wants me to live a respectful life with people talking good abut me and not spread rumors about me. (which normally happens in my profession)

When I told him about Naren and what I felt I thought he might get upset but he did not. He supported me and told me “if you want to speak to him then go ahead and do it.” These words of his eased my mind. I thought when I tell Rahul he might not like the idea of his girl friend wanting to speak to her ex – boy friend. But this turned out to be the other way round and I felt we as a couple have matured and are above these kinds of small insecurities.

I love you Rahul and thanks for being such a wonderful Boy friend. Coz when I was speaking to you about Naren I thought I was not speaking to my boy friend but to a boy who is a friend. I am really luck to have you in my life.

Love you lots Purna.